Iâ€™ve recently been struck with dreams that I donâ€™t want. I donâ€™t know how better to put it, considering this is a public journal and frankly Iâ€™m not going to describe them as they are about a topic I know for a fact I shouldnâ€™t be dreaming about, but I guess Iâ€™m just confused about it all.
I tried to get the dreams out of my head every way I can conceive, and yet theyâ€™re persistent. As if my brain wonâ€™t let me forget the dream Iâ€™m forced to relive it each night for the last four nights. What have I done to my brain to deserve this abuse? Did I neglect it somehow that it has deemed it necessary to punish me for something that wasnâ€™t 100% my fault? Iâ€™ve admitted it was partially my fault, but it seems like my brain isnâ€™t satisfied with that level of blame, instead itâ€™s going to force me to remember painful memories and it expects me to either do something about it or just punish me.
I think Iâ€™ve got it together, better then I did a year and change ago, I know for a fact Iâ€™m better off then I was, but now the dreams bring it back. Why do I have to dream about this and relive something that wasnâ€™t good? How do other people do it? How do they get over something and seem to have no problems? I wish I knewâ€¦