I’m an adult, or at least I’m old enough to be one I think? Then why is it everything I do comes into question? For instance, why do I drink so much? Well lets look at this, I think at the moment I drink so much because I’m living with my parents, who both in their special way drive me up the wall. I’m not used to living with someone, I guess I’m a little more feral then I thought I was, but you know what I like the feral Jude. I’m happy with who I am and frankly I don’t see myself changing for anyone. I’ve been there and done that with the whole change to make someone else happy and you know what? I’m not going to do it again. Sure I’ll compromise with someone, but I’m not going to change who I am as a person just to make someone happy again. That I’m sorry to say also includes my family, I am who I am and that’s that.
Some people get all misty eyed over a kitten or a newborn, I get all misty eyed over my new portable hard drive. I now have almost a TB of storage available to me… And I know I can fill it all up, sick isn’t it?
There are things I talk about to people and there are things I don’t, it’s as simple as that. I’m not sure why people can’t seem to understand that. There are few people who know all about me, and even then I don’t tell them everything. I know I should trust my friends ad family with some of the things I keep to myself, but there are something’s that I’m not able to talk about and probably will never be able to talk about to others. No, I’m not bottling up my emotions and stewing on them, I just don’t talk to people about it. Fear not I’m still a stable person and I need to get out of here!
I know it’s free rent and all that, but I’ve been staying with my folks since I got back from traveling and it’s time for me to get the hell out of this place. Don’t get me wrong I love my family, but I don’t think I can stay with them any longer without going nuts.
I miss the days where common sense was well… common. In this country we sue over the most ridiculous things, it’s embarrassing how common it has become for us to blame others for our lack of common sense. Take this man for instance…
Am I wrong in thinking that if you’re going to cross some railroad tracks that you would look both ways? Or even better, given the crossing in question, wouldn’t the large arms that are keeping the cars from crossing and the bells ringing, oh yes let’s not forget the bright red flashing lights, give you reason to pause and check to see if there isn’t a train coming?
I guess I come from a simple town and I assume people aren’t as dumb as this, but well I’ve been gone for a while and I suppose I’m a little out of touch. I think I just need to get back on the road again…
Yesterday was my 29th birthday, it was a nice little affair with family and friends. I usually don’t give a shit about my birthday or how old I am, but I feel this has some sort of bearing on this post. Apparently since I’m living with my folks for the first time since I was 18, really since I got my drivers license (I spent quite a bit of time at friends or the theater between 16 and 18). Essentially my mom has reverted back to my being 16, which is quite funny giving that was 13 years ago according to the old calendar. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not complaining about it all, since it means free room and board. Well it’s not really free, there is the daily dose of guilt, luckily I’ve become immune to the parental guilt trip so the room and board is free.
Oh well, what can you do with your parents?