I’ll freely admit that people who are happy around me unfortunately are getting the brunt of my unhappiness recently. I make no excuses for my behavior, as it would sound insincere. I will just say this, if you’re happy then you deserve to be, and anything a bitter old man like myself would or could say should mean nothing.
There are times I wish I could just throw a switch and be happy again, since the people around me don’t deserve the abuse I give out. I’ve not been myself since coming back to Seattle and in a way I’m sorry I came back as it’s brought back a lot of bad memories, things that have happened to me and things I’ve done to others. I felt like I could handle it, being back here, but there are days I just feel like I’m sliding and looking longingly at flights to other parts of the world.