Boat show, boat show, it’s the boat show…


So my new gig involves water, boats and all that goes between and with. So far it’s been a pretty fun gig. Security is a lot easier to deal with then it was in Doha, for the most part all the FA’s do their job well, some leave something to be desired, but all in all we work together to make it happen. Today was the fourth day of the show and we have another six to go before it all goes away.

P1270038One of the highlights was the tour of Seattle, provided by Kenmore Air. The float plane departs from the show, it’s a quick flight around the Seattle area and I got some nice shots of the city. It makes me wish I had brought my better camera, but I still had fun.


I’ll try and write a wrap-up post next weekend sometime after we move all the boats out of the show area.

last night…

I was driving to practice last night in South Seattle and as I was going along the viaduct I was suddenly struck with the urge to drive my car over the edge into the water / onto the street below.  The urge even had me doing all the calculations in my head to figure speed, distance, etc. to make this happen.  It’s not the first time this has occurred to me, to drive myself off of or into something.  I think last night was just a little overwhelming and I was ready for an end to something…

My goal for the evening

I decided that on the way home I would stop off at the store and buy a bottle of wine, my goal for the evening to get drunk.  It’s not like I deserve this or I feel some depression, I just decided to drink myself to sleep this evening.  I guess it’s better then what I was originally planning on doing, so if that makes it better, fine.

So of all the five or six people who get their J updates from my blog, I’m sorry that I feel the distinct need to drink.  Actually I’m not sorry at all, I just said that because it looked good on the screen.

I think it’s just me feeling sorry for myself, I can only think of one reason for that and frankly I’m not surprised, after all it’s my SOP when it comes to people I like.  I think a lot of it spawns from my not having a normal college experience, what I mean by that is most people have that dating thing in college and they figure out what they like and such.  Since I got into a serious relationship, well I thought it was serious, almost as soon as I left high school, I missed what normal people go through, the dating ups and downs available to them in college.

Right then enough moping around, there’s drinking to be done!

50 things girls should know about guys

1. Express yourself. It makes us proud, even if someone thinks you’re wrong.

2. You look hot in running shoes and shorts. And that top thingy with the stripes.

3. Bare, tan shoulders are underrated.

4. If you think I’m speeding now, you should see me drive when you’re not in the car.

5. If you’re truly interested in us, don’t play hard to get.

6. Shopping is a chore, not an activity.

7. When I screw up, go ahead and tell me–once.

8. No question need ever be asked through a closed bathroom door if I’m inside. I love you less with each syllable you utter.

9. I’m hot for you, not your sister or your friend or your coworker.

10. My guy friends. Not only are they not negotiable, they’re your best sign that I’m not a whack job.

11. Don’t be afraid to ditch the makeup. Natural is sexier.

12. Leave the eyebrows alone. Plucked ain’t pretty.

13. You can have sex with us any time you want. Seriously.

14. When the game is on, we will pay attention to you if you’re nice about it. Bark, and we shut down.

15. I don’t ask for directions because I’m just happy to be driving. Anywhere.

16. Masturbation is merely practice for the big game. Encourage it.

17. We crave hugs and hand-holding too. And no, it doesn’t always have to lead to sex.

18. But you can have sex with us any time you want. Did we mention that?

19. There’s no better sound in the world than you, having an orgasm.

20. Though the exhaust note of a Porsche Boxster is pretty damn fine, too.

21. I just may lie to make you feel good. Don’t be angry about this. You really weren’t looking for the truth anyway.

22. When you get angry over some stupid little pointless thing, I question your intelligence.

23. You’re really bad at faking it.

24. If I offer my help while you’re getting ready, it means you’re late.

25. Never ask me to pick out your outfit. (See above.) I will invariably get it wrong and make us even more late.

26. Giving me two or three choices, however, can be fun. Assuming you will change outfits in front of me. Slowly.

27. Err on the side of hot; I love to show you off.

28. Unless we’re meeting my parents.

29. When you call us at work “just to chat,” we’re not really listening; we’re checking our e-mail.

30. Spring means baseball and skirts. Doesn’t need to be a mini-skirt; it’s been a long winter.

31. Chicks who drink beer are hot. Better yet: chicks who drink beer and watch the game. Better still: chicks who buy us a beer during the game.

32. We don’t mind being told we look good. Just don’t call it a “cute outfit.”

33. We love ponytails.

34. Being good in bed means a) enthusiasm; b) a sense of humor; and sometimes c) patience.

35. The first time? We’re as nervous as you are.

36. A random unexpected grope is always welcome, even in public. Especially in public.

37. Make us laugh and we’ll want to hang around.

38. Yes, I laugh really loud around the guys. And I always will, so deal.

39. Sure, men stereotypically like to solve a woman’s problems. But a woman who solves her own while we watch? Instant erection.

40. You can pick the movie, but have a reason.

41. Do not expect to have a conversation via text message unless you use the words “naked” and “waiting.”

42. Sometimes we wonder why any woman would want to be with us, much less someone as amazing as you. So, thanks.

43. Anytime you cook for us, we’re happy.

44. If you can hit a golf ball 150 yards, we just might fall in love.

45. No, I don’t remember what he said next. Or she. Or anybody, for that matter. I’m a guy, not a tape recorder.

46. We love you even more because you know we need to go out with the guys once in a while.

47. And we love it when you hang with us guys, too.

48. We have a keen sense of imminent danger. It sounds like, “Do you think she’s pretty?”

49. Don’t rely on us for keeping you up on the news.

50. Never say, “I know you better than you know yourself.” Nobody does.

(Men’s Health)

I’m one sad fucker…

I can’t say what I want to say to T and it’s my own damn fault… I want to tell her I like her, but we’re neighbors and I don’t know if I can break the neighbors barrier or the friend barrier. I know I shouldn’t second guess myself with this kind of shit… When emotions are not in check I get hurt, I’ve been hurt quite a bit and I don’t really know if I’m ready for anything, or am I just trying to justify my neurosis to myself by saying I’m not ready when just don’t want to get hurt again. I think I’m content being discontent with my shit neurosis and my second guessing myself.

And here I go second guessing myself again by calling myself crap and all that shit. what if I just said I liked her? What’s the worse she can say? No? I’ve had enough no’s, I’ve been turned down enough to sense it’s not the best for me to keep getting turned down.

Aw fuck!!!!!